About ten years ago I was in college. I was hanging out with my friends and my heart started to flutter. It is a sensation that I would become very familiar with. At the time though, it was horrifying. After it fluttered it beat inside my chest at a rapid pace for about ten mins.
I saw my friends Alan and Kathi in the hall. I felt God move me to ask them for prayer. Alan put his hand on my heart and his eyes widen. He started to pray as they both huddled around me. As soon as he said Amen it stop suddenly. I was relieved. I started to cry. It was the beginning of about ten years of a wild goose chase.
It took many doctors not believing me but to make a long story short I finally made them listen and caught it on a monitor. Since it happened on and off for years with such long periods in between I just learned to just keep living. However with the lack of help I built up a fear in my ignorance. A fear of my heart and anything that might affect it. Running was at the top of my list.
I have been through heart surgery for SVT and still have inappropriate sinus tachycardia. The awesome doctor I am working with cleared me to run and said it may help keep me from having a more serious operation. So running has now changed from a fear to a possible cure. I think my IST has become somewhat more subdued since the operation last November. They obliterated two extra electrical pathways in my heart. However my health is in my hands more than anyone's. So I am running for many things these days. I am running to overcome an ancient fear, for my future kids, for my husband, and for God, so I am responsible with what he gave me.
My message is if you are in pain be in pain for the right reasons. Shin splints may hurt but at least it is not the muscle pain of laziness. Also, never give up. Face down the plagues of this life. There are many people routing for you. I am routing for you. Let me know if I can pray. God is my strength and he can be yours too. Xo.
I am very proud of you, sweetheart! <3
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